Thursday, October 02, 2008
So...I am losing the smoking battle. It is so hard, and I don't know if I can do it. Quit for a couple of days, smoke for a couple of days, think of quitting, decide not to quit. It is a terrible conundrum. Although I KNOW all the bad stuff about smoking, I am not sure I care. I have seen all the ugly lungs, holes in the throat (gross) but still this ugly little friend is in my hand. Last week, I decided to try again...on my birthday (Monday) ...then on Oct. 1 ( lasted 2 days)...now I do not know. I feel helpless and hopeless.